I wrote the following in September 2016. Four months later, I have gained a new understanding of the ego and will fill you in on another blog post.
Does this resonate with you?
I went for a run one morning and then ‘Numb’ by Linkin Park started to play on shuffle… *AHA moment*
The lyrics in the song could be portrayed like the ego.
“Can’t you see that you’re smothering me, holding too tightly, afraid to lose control? ‘Cause everything that you thought I would be has fallen apart right in front of you.”
It is clearer in the chorus:
“I have become so numb, I can’t feel you there; become so tired, so much more aware. I am becoming this, all I want to do is be more like me and be less like you.”
What do you think? Your authentic self vs. your ego?
First off, the ego is the little voice inside of your head that is insecure, anxious and fearful. Yet on the other hand, it is your sense of survival. According to Freud, it is the psychological component to conscious-decision making; the ego influences your thinking. It’s like the devil on your shoulder. I will elaborate on this in a future post.
Have you heard the old story about the two wolves?
A Cherokee grandfather tells his grandson that there is a fight going on inside of him between two wolves. One wolf is horrid; he is anger, greed, hatred, arrogance, self-pity, and the ego. The other wolf is loving, kind, compassionate, joy, helpful, and living in abundance.
He mentions that everyone else has the battle between the two wolves inside of him or her. The grandson took a moment and asked, “which one wins?” The grandfather said, “the one I feed.”
I am learning something new each and every day as I remind myself about the meaning of these stories. We are extremely fortunate to have options. We have the choice to do something good and be at service to others or go through an endless cycle of overthinking and resentment. In order to get whatever your heart desires, you must first check and accept your ego at the door and release.
Love what you do. If you’re not happy, change your mindset and situation. Stop complaining, and most importantly, be grateful. You are here to love yourself and others, while letting your light shine through in your work.